The Last Voyage of the Jimmy Carter

The title is the title of an episode of the terminator tv series. I'm bumed I found out it was cancelled today :( I guess now I'll have to go see the movie to get my fill of robots blowin stuff up.

I've got a shoe box full of everything you'd forget
Why don't I just let you have it
I'll let you get away just this time

No stop. This is war
Maybe this time you'll learn
you lost your piece of mind
Fuck the nice guy is he's dead

Its my fault, its what I keep thinking
Then I remember, I lost when I let you in

I got what I paid for, twelve dollar roses
Check the floor, don't trip over your conscience

This is war
Maybe this time you'll learn
you'll lose your piece of mind
if you let me in
Fuck the nice guy he's dead

Where the sidewalk ends...

This isn't about a girl, for the first time. This is more or less about being home sick I guess its one of those things that's up for interpretation, im not even exactly sure what it means. I thought I'd try it out.

Hey doll face, I just want to see you again
I think of you just to get through the day
I promise I'll be home sooner than you think

Eyes glow grey in the moonlight
I love when I stare and you respond in silence
Thinking of that street the night we first met
I know your never leaving, that just makes me...

I won't say your in my past
As weeks turn to months, months to years
I promise I'm on my way home

It makes no sense to look back, that's what they say
You can't go back, maybe I'd listen
If the thought of not seeing you didn't make me sick

Hey doll face, I just want to see you again
They think I can't go back
I think of you just to get through the day
They think I won't go back
I promise I'll be home sooner than you think

Men play with women the way they play with words

I get to be the bad guy on this one. I'm probably going to change the title, but this is a quote by Charles Bukowski. I haven't been anywhere near a computer in the last few days so im posting from my phone, and it kind of sucks because I can't comment, but hey...I'll probably get back to a compter on Tuesday.

I wont lie you started as just another conquest
But somewhere between your thighs and eyes
I lost my purpose but found it again, just in time

Dave chapelle said
If you don't want to be treated like whore
don't wear a whore's uniform
Don't criticize what you implied

If I had not acted on the impulse
You would have beded someone else
These concepts are embedded and
I express in ways I can't figure yet

Love and lust might as well be identical twins
But I'll never get them confused again

Call me a hypocrite but I could really care less
You were just a bridge, on my way to something serious
Im sure you've been in this position, and many others
I know karma's a bitch

If you don't want to be treated like a whore
Then don't wear the uniform
Don't criticize what you implied

These concepts are embedded and
I express in ways I can't figure yet
But I'll never get them confused again

A metaphor wrapped in irony?

No one ever warned me
About the ones with big brown eyes
Wide smiles and what they're hiding
Behind teeth words release motives
I never saw coming

I could drown in your eyes
But they're too shallow to tread
Wait now stop a second
How can I describe your perfection

You've become such a part of the music
I think you've grown bass strings for hair

I am arrested in this state of mind
My mind is arrested in this situation
Brown eyes and bass strings for hair
White smiles and what they're hiding
No one ever warned me, I never saw it coming

The future you have tomorrow won't be the future you had yesterday

From the corner of my eye
I see where the future leads me tonight

I've chased stars and you catch light
but I don't think you know
You'll leave with me tonight
From this bar, drinks to cars
I've been chasing the light

Eyes trade stares, ask me where
The time went
I've been tied in your eyes
They drown me in this night
So make this right, as we stare
You see the same as I

So take advantage of this moment
Lets paint this city red
Our hearts in sync
lets take this where you want it

I've chased stars and you catch light
but I don't think you know
You'll leave with me tonight

Would You Like Some Milk With Those Cookies Pt. 2

I wrote this in like 10 to 15 minutes I had the first line stuck in my head all day, along with a little melody and the words just started flowing. It doesn't have anything to do withmy current project but I just really liked it.

Do you ever wonder what happened to me
I know im self centered, but ill never get over it
Just like you'll never get over yourself

Now don't you answer my question with a question
If I have anything to say about it
your conscience will never rest

Im trying to forget but,
Im choking on morals I never knew I had
If I could just breathe
Id only want to breathe into you

I want to do things to your flesh
That you couldn't imagine
For the right and wrong reasons
It makes no difference its all the same

Im trying to forget, what I did to you in dreams
Im trying to forget, what I did to you in dreams
Don't tell me this is karma, nothing's really this fucked up

Im trying to forget but,
Im choking on morals I never knew I had
If I could just breathe
Id only want to breathe into you

Moons of honey drown in the dark

First part of the story, its gonna be written out of order. This is the affair between Eve and the Toy.

Covered up by a thinly veiled piece of lace
Looking through you can't see anything
The thought makes me sick from my insides out
But I can't stop now

We meant what we said, so
Why can't we stop ourselves
My skin is burning, lungs are shrinking
I want to rip your flesh to pieces
I want to rip your flesh to pieces

The guilt consumes
But I've bitten off more than I can chew
Adrenaline feeds me

At least whores make money, we just hide our faces

Trust in my back pocket
How can I say I've lost it

Even the Mona Lisa's Falling Apart

Where the hell am I?
Praying for love, on my last chance
Im praying, its naive and I know

Dance as long as this bottle lasts
Cause when its gone so are you
Wait til I come to, I will show you
the best way to leave

This is what you wanted
This is what you lead me to
And you can forget, I bet that feels good

One more drink and the desire to fuck overwhelms you, one more desire
could kill me

Praying for love, on my last chance
Im praying, I know its naive
Where the hell am I?
Im lost, and I've given up on myself

On my best day im three times the wreck of a normal man on his worst
day

Praying for love, on my last chance
Im praying, and I know its naive

I love you as much as a robot can love a person

I already know what your thinking
And I know this much is true
I walk with my eyes wide shut
So how could I lead you on

Is it possible to love someone who doesn't love you back
Hell is, hell is empty I know
because all of my demons are here

I've been thinking all night
Trying to pull this pen from my hand, I
can hear the words in my head screaming
To get out

Turn your eyes from brown to blue
And back again
Next time you cross my mind
Just remind me and I'll cross my wrist

I rise with the sun, and you'll fall with the moon
I rise with the sun, and you'll fall with the moon

The Irony of Beethoven

The Moments in between laughter
are memories that we all live for
its the small things that make you taste so sweet
for better or worse, you make me weak at my knees

March nights are ever so warming
but at the same time they can feel just like December
Lusting, loving, my mind questions the wanting
Because if it feels this good, it can't be real
Because if it feels this good, it can't be real

We live in fear, of being close so no one will see through
False face's hide what the false heart's know
It was always to benefit you
Hide my face so you could never see the real me
I've wasted time and now time wastes me
I've wasted time and now time wastes me

The Moments in between laughter
are memories that we all live for
Ill try to get over, the fact
That I've wasted time and now time wastes me

Guardians of the infinite abyss

I think this was inspired by an odd mixture of the French revolution,
some hardcore music, and the movie Garden State. Im going to sleep...

Everybody, everybody get down, get down
This is a riot, this is a riot
From the windows to wall
Shots ring out

Drop your head
The sound of desperation smells decay,
let them eat cake

There once was a man who spoke his mind, so they cut out his tongue and
then said "tell me what you think now"

On top they don't look down
We'll make them see look at us now

The sound of desperation smells decay,
let them eat cake

Everybody, everybody get down, get down
This is a riot, this is a riot
From the windows to wall
Shots ring out

"Timmy your 1 for 5, your not good enough!"

I dreamed of castles and estates all my life
you wouldn't know if I tried, but I know I can make it
Bullets over cropmton, make me nostalgic
sound of sirens crashing always put me to sleep

Once im gone, im not coming back
Sleep with that, im leaving my shoes
Barefoot on the concrete in July
Left so quick I forgot my mind
Either way im on my way out of this town tonight

Is your bed made? I bet it is
running wild like those valley kids
What you always feared, or just cared
How it was reflected on you

I dreamed of castles and estates all my life
you wouldn't know if I tried, but I know I can make it
Bullets over cropmton, make me nostalgic
sound of sirens crashing always put me to sleep