Brainstorms and Raincoats

After being hit by a little burst of inspiration, I often find myself wondering where and how this inspiration comes about. Obviously music is the biggest source, but I think its the fact that my brain probably isn't wired properly, hell even I know I'm strange. I also think its more or less the crap I've had to endure throughout my childhood, mostly my teens. My teens for lack of a better term have pretty much sucked, way to many highs and lows. The last two years have a special place in a little corner of hell. Mostly a result of being let down by the only people your supposed to be able to count on, and realizing you don't get a second chance most of the time. Enough of my depressing rants.

The thought of what inspires me led me to analyze things I take a particular interest in for no Good reason. All of my weird obsessions that I love.

Chuck Palahniuk is a fucking sick genius. The way he looks at everything and explores some of the oddest situations. I love the way he uses addictions with his characters; and the sick sexual references he uses. I don't know if that's something to look up to or admire but I do.

Music, I love it. Its probably more of the creative process behind it that I love. I enjoy music in pieces more that as a whole sometimes. A song could have the worst lyrics and the most amazing music; and I could listen to the instrumental all day. Same goes for the opposite, if a song has great lyrics it doesn't matter how awful the music is I could listen to it all day.

Lyricists/poets are the people I admire the most, the ability to say a complicated thing in a simple way is something I envy and hope to achieve one day. I know this is pretty gay for a 19 year old black kid to say; but Pete Wentz' lyrics are amazing. The way he can put such simple, yet personal feelings into words that are so fitting of the mood is what I aspire to. Ryan Ross is insane his lyrics are so thought out and planned that it makes me wonder how long it takes him to write that stuff. Eminem is a mad genius. I was listening to "Marshall Mathers LP" and I can't imagine how he felt when he wrote and recorded that stuff. Its like how can someone put all of that rage into song. I don't even think I could ever reach the levels of anger that he hit on that record. Charles Bukowski is a man that was ahead of his time, truly a genius, he mastered the ability to put his thoughts and feelings on paper.

Movies/TV I really love movies with intricate plots or just anything that is really screwed up. I saw this movie the "Opposite of Sex" a few days ago, and it really got me thinking. That's all I really want to get out of a movie, just the ability to consider something from another point of view. I also love like 90s nickelodeon cartoons, like hey arnold, doug and rugrats. I just think the people who write this stuff are probably the coolest people alive. How do you as an adult write a show for kids, a good show. I don't know how its possible, I could never do that.

Books are something I never enjoyed as a kid but now I can't put them down. When reading a book is the only time I can focus completely on one thing, ever. Oddly enough I tend to read books really fast, I knock out about 600 pages in one day, if I enjoy it. One of the most interesting stories I've read is choke by chuck palahniuk, the main character reminded me of myself, struggling with a negligent mother and the wrong ideas about sex and women. Rant by Palahniuk is also amazing stylisticly its written as an interview from beginning to end and its so vivid and confusing, I completly enjoyed putting that puzzle together.

That's it I guess, this ran a little long and incoherent, but hey.